Left without any
Reason to live
My plagues are many
And I've no first son to give

These empty sidewalks
Are cleansed by a flood
Where raindrops once mocked
Now there's only blood.

But it's blood that guides me,
Protects me and hides me
It's tales of melancholy
I cannot put behind me

The string's are finally cut,
I laugh as puppets fall
Limbs limp in the thick air,
Faces unknown to all.

Fiery rage and heroin
Reaving through my veins
Now I can see the strings again,
Constriction without pain.

And there's ony hatred, bleak and black,
In this monolithe city of gallow.
And All I feel now is theacute lack
Of a modern messiah so hallowed

All strings are cut,
I weep as puppets fall
Limbs limp in the thick air,
Souls unknown to all

These strings now severed
Can only hold false hopes and dreams
Now the scissors are in my hands
And it's my turn to cut at the seams

And now I'm falling with the rest
My body fills with regret
The city turns to nothing less
Than another jail to forget

My strings are gone; I'm finally free;
The bloody sidewalks are rushing at me
Now crimson sorrow is all I see
The bloody sidewalks are rushing at me

Forever falling wih the rest
My corpse fills with regret
As I become nothing less
Than one more falling marionette.

Take my hand and flee with me from this land of forsaken guilt,
How could we ever stay in this city of monoliths?
Together we can make a match like none this world has seen,
And together we can discover something greater.

The wild is calling our names, a chorus of lust,
The voices of darkness are naught but release.
They are what we've sought since we left the teat,
And they are the one savior in this land of confusion.

We gained these complexes from a system of asylum,
But breaking our habits is a venture worth taking.
Greater integration into these new lands of passion
Can only come when we leave behind our insurrections.

A chain between our minds, both binding and joining, whispers of an oncoming tempest.

The apex of the maelstrom nears like a bull black and angered,
The sky is full of ashes from the flames that rained down.
Now the cinders twist in the winds of lost souls,
And the coming disaster laughs at our faults.

Let me feel your warmth as we await the slaughter,
So we can leave this singular world in each other's arms.
The pulse of the Earth is beating with ours
But the screaming anger of the storm will end us if we stay.

So I'll guide you and your shadow to the far horizon,
Following a path my forefathers carved into my mind.
Yet the path is nothing but a metaphor, a secret well-kept,
And it tells us to seek salvation in ourselves.
The gift of this planet and it's spirit benevolent are forever welcoming.

Your hand in mine, guiding the stylus,
We'll carve our own ending while the leaves fall around us.
In the ever-shifting stones of imperfect eternity,
We'll leave behind our story for the future's children.

Lost in the woods of our passion unending,
But content to be absorbed in each other's eyes,
We will answer the questions that none dared to ask,
And run with the reaving beasts of our emotions.

Now unhindered by the flaming rages of society,
We will harness the raw energies of a wild untamed,
And birth an entity higher than ourselves
For all the world to see.

A single face of our spirits blended is our shining gift back to Gaia.

For Kerry.

Your eyes shine down,
A mellow flame.
You're perfect white,
The black, your frame.

In this tunnel, unending and black,
You're purity honed bright.
Which is why, I, with nowhere to turn,
Seek nothing save your virgin light.

I lay in the chasm,
Soaking in shame.
You're above with a rope,
Calling out my name.

And when I am without
Anything but burning doubt,
With not a thing to smile about,
I cannot help but seek you out.

As I wish to see you soon,
My wings scream their urge to fly.
For when I dance without your tune,
My hearts screams an urge to die.

When I'm with you, I can see
Through this endless fantasy.
Don't need to hind behind the tree
Of rootless, ever-growing dreams.

And I know I'll see you soon,
Our time is now, our dreams are nigh,
I'm the night to your moon,
Your soul in the sky.

Something dark,
Sweet like my blood
My inside's stark
I need your flood

Of pure burning white myrrh
To quell my desires
In this storm of white-red horses,
Only you can end my fire

End my fire, spirit me away
Don't wanna wander this cave till the end of my days
Hold me in the falling cinders, let me fade into your eyes
Cause your memory's fading into bleeding skies
So end my fire,
Bring the dust.

They see our crimson passion,
And they wish for such a love
Their bloodless hands go out of fashion
Their laws become just lies from above

But I still can't believe
As you fall away from me
That what we had is nothing more
Than an unwanted memories

Please end my fire, take me back
Why did you paint why whole sky black?
Kiss me in the falling cinders, look into my eyes
Without your hands, I fall into the sky
So end my fire,
Bring your dust.

You flew to utopia
On wings of stolen retribution
You left me lying in the mud
Waiting for my execution

Well who are you to leave me behind?
And I know it's you that I'll never find
Well fine, you're not mine, I'll take your face as a sign
That I shouldn't seek your touch
So just bring on your dust!

Now light my fire as the sun ends its reign
Allow me to return this unending pain
I'll rain cinders into your desperate eyes
I'll bleed into your skies till I see you die!

Oh end my fire.

Just end my fire.

Oh,
End my fire, let me live with my pride
I'll learn to live without you by my side
The cinders fall and I hide in the ash
Now I just wait for my final crash
So end my fire...

Bring the dust.

Photoshopped lies
With blasphemous ties
Speak to fools who listen,
Whispering falsities unchristened

The world's trapped in a seal of nonexistent, blind faith
For in reality, all reason flees like a bleak, weaving wraith

But still, the miniscule dot of trust,
Still overshadowed by power's lust,
Is swept up by gluttony's gust,
And ultimately turned to dust.

And while some do sleuth
For the lackluster truth
They are brought to fast silence
With calculated violence

No-one will ever listen, not a soul will ever hear
The prayer offered as a boon to make the hatred disappear

And yet, it all still breaks
Because they just think to take, take, take
Instead of trying for the sake
Of spirits full of human ache

And so I shed a tear,
For society, I fear
Will throw itself of the brink
And saddeningly sink

We try, we climb, we seek the source, but finally, we fail
We can now only take shelter, for fire falls like hail

We ourselves created this fate
We alone will kill the human race
Because we can't ever get past the hurt or the hate
And we can't ever remember who made things this way

Because, with the tide,
Comes our own suicide
As we're self-justified
And can't swallow our pride.

No mind to lose
No, nothing there, just a soul cold and bare
You clipped my wings, you'll never sing, you'll just sit there and blare
All the shit that you spat-but then, I guess you knew that
So just leave me alone.
Go home-

--I
Cannot escape this heretical rape
So get out of my mind--
I can't leave you behind-
Let me cut out this pain
I tried to leave you in vain
I want to get you out of my head!
But instead
You watched as I bled!

Nothing left to steal
But a corpse hollow, no hope to follow
You left me out to rot in the cold
Trying to forget you is getting real old
So I'll walk away with nothing to say
'Cause this pain's so real, none else can feel
Why my future's stark and why I'm in the dark

You
Stole what I gave, so take this to the grave
I'll never forget what made me your slave
I'll leave you to die, and without you I'll fly
To a land of honey made for you and I.
I'll enjoy what you lost without accost
You'll never break through when I'm coated in frost

Oh, you'll wish that that night,
You never gave me an excuse
The skull fuck was worth it
'Cause you enjoyed the abuse.

Gouge the eye, insert the pole
Enjoy this bloody, natural hole
No resolve, just pain and hate
Until you can satiate!

Oh, yes, I enjoyed the blood and gore
I won't deny it; I want more!
But everything ends before too long--
Just glad that I won't again hear your song.
You enjoyed, I know, you ungrateful whore
I won't stand by and watch as you finish your war
Like all of those other hearts you tore
I watch our memories rise from the bong-
Remembering's like a drug-with it, you can't go wrong
So until I again find a place to belong
I'll skull fuck your mind to pieces.

We
Fell to shambles, but I won't ramble
We weren't in love, just fooled by the dove
Of lust and rust and dusted trust
I know that my hatred is sure-fire just
So until I find a reason to hope
For something other than a way to cope
I'll skull fuck your mind to pieces-

Gouge the eye, insert the pole,
Enjoy this bloody, natural hole
No reason to hope, just pain and death
I swear to God, it's better than meth
I find inner peace, I find my release
I unload into your brain-

We lost what we had but I'm done being sad
I just hate that you thought that I think that it's bad
To enjoy the death, and to savor the blood
It spurts and I drink it, a wonderful flood
Of your life and your hopes and all the dreams you stole
It's thanks to my hate that you'll never be whole!

Oh, gouge the eye, insert the pole,
Enjoy this bloody, natural hole
My blade of hate was never dull-
All the more reason to fuck your skull!
I unload into your brain--
At least you haven't died in vain!

A single tear ran down my cheek
My pistol's sights trembled as my own body shook
All eyes rested on me; my pulse hit a peak
I wished she could share in these last breaths I took.

To end her life in a bang and a flash
To steal her breath, to allow her to die...
At these thoughts, my heart was twofold slashed
She could be key to ending the lies!

And what of these people, this crowd around me?
Surely they'd rage at the sight of her death.
Despite my armings, they still closely surrounded me
There was narrowly berth with which I could take breath.

Indecisiveness unimaginable bubbled up within my chest
If I choose to end her life, would my mind ever rest?

I looked her closer in the eyes;
They seemed endless, filled with trust
I could tell that if she died
She believed not that she'd turn to dust

She smiled still, in ignorant bliss
I contemplated what harm would come
If I were against on my own against this-
I was no judge, but I did hold the gun.

I smiled back and gave a wink
No more tears would stain my view
Quickly, I planned; my heart ceased to sink
I could see in her eyes that she knew what to do.

Again, I sight my target, straight down the barrel-
I laughed; the crowd knew not she was in no more peril.

My finger first twitched, then rested on the trigger
I stared down the sights and nodded a final time
She stood there bravely, stance none but rigor
She seemed sure of the outcome, her confidence sublime

I pulled back my finger; the gun kicked and roared
A great steeled beast of its own kind
In a flash of light, the bullet soared
Flying fast towards a mark it would surely find

It struck the wall, just grazing her fair neck
She jerked, grunted and fell to the bloodstained ground
The priest burst forward, on the body to check
He was sure that her soul was now heaven-bound

The crowd was void of chatter as the priest knelt over the dead
As he prayed, she awoke, and leapt up from death's bed

He fell back in amazement, eyes wide and wrought
She leapt o'er and lifted his timid form
An arm wrapped 'round his neck; at first he fought
She spoke in his ear; his demeanor warmed

The crowd seemed torn between the two factions:
A father in God's house and a Heretic so hailed
In moments, though, there was a burst of action
Once, she spoke, the indecision failed

"Alright, the tide's turned! All of you, get back!"
She waved her free arm in mock suspicion.
Though out of the guards' view, before they attacked
She smiled at the crowd, showing her true ambition

The guards closed in about her, a tight circle of blades and rifles.
They never suspected my next actions; they thought me a trifle.

I snuck up behind them quietly and prepared to betray
I cocked my pistol; it went under a guard's armor
The shot rang loud and true, heralding the coming disarray
He fell to the ground; the crowd needed no more charmer

Cries for blood rang amuck and loud
The rage of the people broke forth like a beast
The peace of which the city was once proud
Was brought to an end in one single blood feast

The guards, overwhelmed, were knocked down and crushed
And vanished underneath a tide of poor feet.
We were swept up with the wade as the crowd rushed
To the palace, the capital, full of deceit.

The mob would not stop; we two led it to the doors
Of our ruler's shelter, soon to be no more.

A single phrase
Of words you stole
I'm not unfazed;
At least you're not whole.

It satiates
Without debate
That I can relate
All of my hate

To what you want and what we had.
This search for asylum isn't a fad.
I just want to see you
But you've flown away.
You've left me to root through
What you've thrown away

Take this broken promise
That you never meant to keep
And just be honest;
Did you always hate me?

Can't believe I bought it
When I shoulda fought it
I never forgot it
None else woulda thought it.

Just leave my pride at the door;
Let it bleed out on the floor.
Our story's now lore,
But I don't want to hear it anymore.

You stole my good will and cut it to shreds
I dig down for hope but just find more dread

Now I can't fell you
Because you flew away.
I'll never heal you;
I'm what you threw away.

So take these shattered dreams of mine
And carve them in my grave.
And then you'll know
Why you're all alone-
I don't want what you gave...
Just leave.

One failing lie
Is one stone in the wall.
I can't cut our ties
Unless I want to fall.

Walk your ass out that door,
Let me bleed on the floor.
We used to soar,
But I'm sick of our war.

You corrupted my mind when I looked away.
I know I won't find the hope you took away.

I don't want to feel you
I want to fly away.
My wings won't conceal you;
They'd first die away.

Oh, just take your broken promises
And carve them in my heart.
And then you'll see
Why we weren't to be
And why we fell apart...
Just leave.

Blackening
Whilst fading out.
Don't know how
I've lived without
The truthful pain you've given me.
I open my eyes but I can't see
Through the lies and fantasy
Of what will never be.

Losing faith
And losing breath.
I search for you
And just find death.
I don't get what's going on.
I see you, lost in endless dawn.
Don't what I ever did wrong,
I just wish I could hear your song.

Seething hearts
And hopeless minds
Can't save themselves,
Nor what they find.
Until the end of dusk, I try.
With you in mind, my trust won't die.
I'll fall for my dreams, and with them I'll lie.
Until I learn again to fly.

A surge of black
Is all I see.
I feel my way,
You've blinded me.
You stole my good faith and ripped us apart,
I wonder if you were true, even at the start
What we had was a work of art
'Til you carved these words on my heart:

"I know you'll want to,
But don't follow me.
I know they'll taunt you,
But don't let them see

All that we had,
If it were ever real.
I'm now poison-clad,
And my mind's in a seal

And it's just for you;
I'll return in time.
They'll never break through
'Til they understand the crime.

I don't want to go; I want you here with me-
Stay put, and I'll find you, my one blackened tree."

We met by chance
Amidst song and dance.
Nothing to enhance
The modest romance,
Save your beautiful glance
Which did entrance.

Yet everything clicked
Like none could predict.
One can't contradict
Or even depict
The love we afflict-
I'm addicted to it.

Never felt this way,
Though how, I can't say.
Not a thing could delay
This inspired display
Of feel and disarray,
Of passionate play.

And now, I can see
What I've missed all this time--
So it fits to a tee
When your hand is in mine.

It was no small feat
When you entranced me that night.
I'm not complete
When you're not alright.

I can only hope
That you'll accept my feelings.
Without you, I can't cope
Without you, I'm left bleeding.

To sum it all up into one simple phrase,
When I think about you, my heart bursts into blaze.

So, hey
You're away
And I'm ruing the day
Glad I knew you then,
Cuz you're a hell of a friend,
And I'll see you again,
Just can't wait until then.

I can't hide
From my pride
Cuz without you by my side
It's pissed and it's dying,
Sick of the lying,
And all the denying;
When it's with you, it's flying.

Melodies
Breaking free
From inside of me
Not something you can steal
--They seems so ethereal--
They're all I can feel...
Can't believe this is real.

Like a wish,
Like a kiss,
Lost in sorrowful bliss
You can't be some fling,
When your absence so stings.
Still dreaming of your wings...
With you, my heart sings.